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我的名字是肯和我是一个病态赌徒。我想和大家分享我们在戒赌说我
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我出生在蒙特利尔魁北克于1950年，并与一个兄弟和四个姐妹长大。我的爸爸是一个勤奋的人，但可能是一个硬饮酒为好。通常，当他喝醉后回家，他对我妈妈非常虐待和当战斗开始我会挤我的姐妹们关闭的回寝室，尽量平静下来。Problem was that when my Dad sobered up my Mom became verbally abusive to him and this usually ended up with him going out again a few days later and getting drunk.This cycle continued for years and when my Dad wasn’t home by 6pm I knew this meant it was going to be another night of yelling and fighting. When I was 10 I had money from doing a paper route and on those nights I would leave home right after dinner and go to the corner store where they had pinball machines and escape there until I was pretty sure my Dad had fallen asleep. My escape of using the pinball machines was later replaced with slot machines when the casinos opened and I needed to escape from any stress in my life. And as soon as I turned 21 I got married and moved away to Toronto and there was no stress for the first 7 or 8 years.
我的妈妈和她的父母/是因为我知道今天病态赌徒和赌博是生活对我的正常方式。我把我的第一个赌注在蓝邦尼特赛道时，我是10，并与16一赌是赌但是，一旦我遇到了我的第一个妻子的赌博放缓和我的新生活是和平的。但我真的相信，我错过了家庭生活我成长和集的混乱有关我的生活既酗酒和赌博创造我自己的混乱。这与我的第一个妻子和我分裂告终。她是一名糖尿病患者，虽然我们分开了，她有并发症，由于她的病，叫我回来。但固执我没有说，并开始与我目前的合作伙伴建立新的关系。一年后，我的第一任妻子在30岁去世，而其换肾。当然，我也没跟我有关这引起了我的内疚新的合作伙伴。我想，如果我们已经得到重新走到一起，她就不会离开了人世。今天，我知道这是不是真的，但我花了近20年来理解这一点。
我的新恋情又一次进展顺利，我为自己有了一个女儿和一个儿子而感到自豪。我集中精力不让自己像父亲一样酗酒，但我没有注意到自己的赌博行为。在我们相处了大约10年之后，我的赌钱开始增加。我的伴侣忙着照顾孩子，我在路上上班，我的工作给我带来了很多压力。我和我妈妈一样，成了一个逃避现实的赌徒。在接下来的三年里，从1999年到2002年，我的赌博失去了控制，我即将失去我的家庭、我的房子和我的工作。2002年6月13日，我认为摆脱困境的唯一办法就是结束自己的生命，于是我动身前往家庭别墅，试图找到这样做的勇气，但我找到了别的东西。那天中午，有人敲小屋的门，我去开门，发现一男一女正挨家挨户地讲上帝的话。我去那间小屋已经有将近40年了，以前从未见过它。我谢过他们后，决定到小屋附近的一个小村庄里去买些什么，作为我的最后一餐。 That night while I was eating steak and potatoes I turned on the new TV my sister and her husband had installed the weekend before and watched two movies in a row. First one was 28 Days about a lady who had a drinking problem and went away for treatment and second one was called Pay It Forward.
Maybe I didn’t really want to end my life but I took these three things as a sign from a Higher Power (in my case God ) and returned home not knowing if I still had a family a home or a job but I knew I needed help. I called GA the next day and attended a meeting that night. I was greeted by a fellow member who shook my hand gave me a hug and told me she was glad that I was there and there was lots of hope. I just had to keep coming back. That was about 8 years ago and One Day At A Time I placed my last bet June 13th 2002.
我的生活不完美的我仍然有我每天面对但今天我没有单独做的事情很多生活中的问题。我保持连接到别人的GA和访问网站，如每天GamTalk。乐动电子游戏网址我喜欢说“我今天最糟糕的一天没有赌博仍是比我最好的一天赌博更好。”此外，当我参加了我的第一个GA会议上，我说：大家好，我是肯·L和我是一个病态赌徒。今天我说我的名字是肯·L和我是一个感恩的恢复病态赌徒。如果你正在努力，请主动寻求支持，因为这是一个非常艰难的瘾，从我们自己的恢复。谢谢你让我分享。
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